bachelour to the rapture!!!

February 8, 2006

I'd like to thank Ashley for the tip on that phrase...

Onward to business!!! This will be an ongoing edited blog about why I've chosen celebacy. Just so you guys are much less confused about my life - not that you really need to know. If I update it, I'll say so in a recent blog of that day. I may updated it because I am constantly uncovering new reasons!!!

Now - to begin:
*with the line of work that I'm planning on doing - a boyfriend/husband will only hold me back. I mean, you find me a guy that is willing to travel constantly all over the world and not only sight see but do humanitarian work with the poorest of the poor and sickest of the sick and love every sore and pain out there? Hmm...
*I'm a terrible girlfriend - and guys are much better friends with me.
*There really aren't any gentlemen out there anymore ('cept one - yeah Cody!)
*I'm wicked picky about guys anyhow.
*Have you even seen how complicated relationships are? SHEESH!!! Spare me please.
*It says in the Bible that you're better off single than married if you can be that way.
*God is the best boyfriend in the world because He's perfect.
*I feel no pain this way - no yearning, no hurting, nothing bad.
*I've never been happier.
*I get to be strong for myself and I don't have to worry about being too much of a man in a relationship and stealing it from the guy.

That's all for now... I think... I'll edit it if I think of more!!! (below this)

PS - it may seem sometimes that I am longing for a relationship, but it's more like this: I wish that I was much better at memorizing at first glance, but that's just not my blessing, and wanting it isn't going to make me that way. It's been ingrained in me through society since I was born to grow up and get married and that's it. But it's so not true!!! I was born single - why is it that society thinks I cannot survive that way? That something is wrong if I don't have a relationship? Pfftttt... Oh yeah - 'nother reason:

*to prove that society is wrong and I don't need a man to be okay.

(12 Feb)
*I think the biggest reason is to protect me from myself... And I've grown a lot from whence I was before so I'm getting better - hence the happy blogs lately. :-D

(15 Feb)
*I do not deserve a good guy who would fufil all of these things b/c of what kind of person I am when I am in a relationship...

(28 Feb)
*If you get married, then how do you know that you won't meet someone better? You can't meet all 6 Billion people on the planet to know! So how do you know!?
*and If you get married, then what happenes if the person changes? People change - what do you do if the changes (NOT physical) are further than you can handle??? Huh huh huh???

> I figured out the answer to this tonight - that if God is calling you to marry someone, then He will bless it and you just have to trust that He knows what He's doing. If you entered a union w/o Him and find Him on the way, you need to know that He'll honour the convenant that you have entered and never ask you to leave it. He's not a fan of divorce (just check the Bible).

(2 March)
*When I was with Josh, every once in a while I'd go to CPR or a really awesome church service and feel so in love with God that Josh was really pushed aside. I remember asking the question one night "Is it possible to be so in love with Jesus that you cannot love a significant other?" I was told no - His love magnifies our love... But I think that I was right. Because at this moment in time I want God and only God and I honestly don't think that I have the capacity to love a man the way he would want. Ew. HAHA! If I think I might have written something similar above, but I think the memory helps... Paz!