Who's spear are you at the end of?

January 28, 2006

I went to see "The End of the Spear" with JoshyM, his bro Samuel and their friend. I cried - so much. I'm not really sure why. But as an Anthropologist, I was furiated. Those people were nowhere near prepared to go into the rainforest and contact the tribe. Had they at least spoken their language better, the missionaries would not have died. So much miscommunication. And then... (I'll be vulnerable for you guys)... I was angry at God. I'm not really sure why anymore. I think just how do we know that this whiteman religion is correct? I mean, I cannot deny what I have felt in my life so I suppose that it is foolishness to even say such things... It's just... I guess it's the principle of white men going into other countries and saying 'you're wrong'. They don't have that right... When finally the sister went to her tribe and said that their own God had a son and he was speared but he did not spear back so he could save lives... Now that's how it's to be done. If ever. Yeah, by teaching them the ways of who we call Jesus to the tribes, they stopped killing each other... but it failed bitterly when at first the ethnocentric view was tried. *sigh* I understand why so many anthropologists are against religion. I am too... but that doesn't change my faith. I just have to get out of the United States... Keeping citizenship may protect me in someway (for a while maybe), but I can't stand how isolated we have become! Even around our borders... It kills me. It takes away freedom - because our minds are not open. When will humanity ever learn? I daresay never, because by the time we figure it out, we're too old and either dead or not worth listening to anymore; and the trend goes on.

Yo anuncio, mi Dios. Qué más pueden hacer aquí? Nada... Me paresco. Estoy muy frustrado con el situación total. Es así - no estoy por el mundo... Pienso que voy a morir más pronto que tarde... Solamente no estoy por este mundo... Que puedo ayudar personas cuando hay más personas arruinando que estoy edificando? No puedo comprender este mundo... Es injusto - es solamente, completamente injusto. No hay más. No hay nada.