a sad realization

My birthday is in 4 days.
And I received a card in the mail from my Godmother.
And I thought to myself 'oh yeah! I get cards and money in the mail right about now!' And then I realized...


I'm not getting one from either of my grandmothers this year...
*cries*












Life is hell.
Friends betray you.
And the good and meek die when they shouldn't.
I'm sick of it all...


I just want to go back to school and be with my brothers and sisters where I know they care about me NO MATTER WHAT. Not if I make it home on time. Not if I don't peirce my nose. Not if I say something wrong. Not if I misunderstand. Nothing. They love me no matter what... I miss them. No. There is nothing left for me in Novi anymore. SCREW Novi - all my life, it has never treated me well. I find two people here that I love and care for that stay original to here - Rich and Emily. Ashley, like I, has sprouted wings and flown away from this awful place. Thank God for her. Otherwise, more than once, I would not still be alive... <3


*sigh* I'll be fine tomorrow. Just wait and see. Forgivness takes away the anger, but only time and God take away the pain...