childish awe

Nothing has ever seemed so beautiful to me than the sight of my daughter cousins playing with their friend on the see-saws at the playground. They're so innocent and creative - finding ways for all three of them to work one see-saw. Maybe this is why I yearn to be young again - to be careless and untouched by the ways of this world...

And then they got into a fight and the youngest hid in the woods for a while... Well, not everything can last. What can are the memories of what she said when on that see-saw with her friend: "Slam it mama!" What!? What 6 year old says that!? Or when they wanted to do the spider on the swing - but of course have 3 instead of 2 - and they all pile on and she says "We're the Three Amigos!" Uhhhh... I don't think I'd even heard of that movie at that age. I love them so much and could spend my days with them. But it's nice to come home and crash such as now, and leave their parents to deal with the quarreling of the tired eves.

I know - I KNOW! But my darling friends, we all know that I have no idea if I'll ever get married. I haven't even met the right guy. And that's gotta happen first. THEN I can have children... But the way I'm planning on traveling, it'll be hard. I can hear you ladies saying "but when you meet that man something happens and you want to change your whole world around for him" but I'm saying to you - It'd take a hell of a guy. Expecially since I've done that with past boyfriends (when they were significant enough - NOT with Jordan! EW!). So maybe I'll go on babysitting and raising my family and friends children right, and I'll make my mark that way. ;-) Maybe... <3


At any rate - find the innocence of a child. The outlook of one, too. Even a child sees a soul rather than a scheming human. How beautiful. How free. Even when the world is gone wrong, they find a way to play and to dance and to sing - because they can still fly - they still have wings. Don't lose that. Not ever.
(and then there was that time when I meant to write 1 paragraph and instead I got a fricken article... Ooookkkaaayyy...)