la la land

Life is good again.
Things are being sorted out.
Friends are being my friends.
OKAY GOD MOMENT!!! So lately, since life has been stressful, God has totally prompted a ton of my friends to send me messages saying "I love you" and "I miss you". I love it. It's totally lifted me up and I've been telling everyone how wonderful it's been. It's been so incredible. Both Josh's (DeJong and Martonosi) have been calling me and people have been dreaming of me and it's just all so lovely. I feel so lifted up and reassured. God is saying 'it's alright, my child'. And I feel just so much better. Even my little cousins have been saying little things to me. It's wonderful.
So I'm definatly feeling above all this crud and alright with whatever happens. Plus - I have a friend who is seeing some action in a relationship that is back and forth ... similar to one of mine. Haha! School is going to be reassuring and refreshing. I'll miss all my best friends in Novi, but they'll be off living their own lives and it'll be just wonderful for them. I'm excited for all of us and to see us all grow.
My birthday is coming up soon, here. I'll no longer be a teenager and be able to use that as an excuse. To those of you who are older than 19 but under 21, what do you do? Because I can't simply say "I was drunk" - plus that's a lame one. I'm excited, and at the same time, scared. I'll be a full quarter of the way through my life... Hopefully less, but maybe more! If I die at 80 like the predictions say, then 1/4 has gone by and I've done hardly anything productive with my life. I've just spent it in the education system run by the governments. Great. But now I'm free of all that and flying high at school and joining AmeriCorps and feeding the homeless and dancing in God's love, and it's good. So... I have high hopes. One thing I've noticed about myself, though - I'm a thinker, not a doer. And that frightens me. I must be proactive. I am with some things (like petitions or getting salt put down on the sidewalks) but not others (like finding a sweet job or a solid study abroad programme or beginning a non-profit org). *sigh*
Anyhoo, life is shaping up. The little holes in my heart are closing, thanks to some really awesome friends - both guys and girls. Mostly guys. Because they're just awesome like that. They aren't afraid to just say it as it is. And a really close brother of mine - Dan W. - had a good point that hurt like heck (I started crying) but was very true. Hence I started to cry. It's been good. And I thank all of you who have been there for me, sorting all the insanity out.
6 Billion people... Who will I find next?