what is love?

December 22, 2005

Right, then. To all you folks out there that were worried by my last post, everything is fine. I'm not bawling my eyes out because I'm worried I will never get a guy. As if! The truth of the matter is, if you haven't figured it out by now, that I sincerely do not want another boyfriend as long as I shall live. I love my boys, we all know that, but not romantically. There are so many reasons - it ruins so much, a huge hassle, burden, stress, etc. Just not worth it. Besides, society dictates that I am not alright without a boyfriend, so, of course, I'm out to prove them wrong. Jesus and I will be just fine without any other boys trying to rule my life or trying to keep up with me. I honestly don't think there is a male out there - boy or man - who could even dream of keeping up with me, anyhow. Expecially not a boy. Think about it: what man would be willing to follow me across the world three times a year; climb to the highest peak with me (Mt. Everest) or sink to the lowest valley (Mariana Trench); see every single wonder of the world every conceived; visit every country, every famous city, and towns worth mentioning and some which are not according to many? I don't think anyone would. And I know that no relationship cannot take that much time apart. Even if I dont have the money to do all these things as often as I would like, all my time, love, and life will be devoted to the least of these (the poor, the widow, and the orphan), just as Jesus calls. So I suppose I am rather glad that no such gentleman of Pride and Prejudice exists, for I would be in quite the vice. Then again, no I wouldn't. Who would choose a man over ones own dreams? Yet, the heart is deceiving. That is why I have Jesus - I know He will not steer me wrong, and He is, after all, perfect. Besides - I'm a horrid girlfriend who is hard to satisfy, and who should have to deal with that? I'm a true friend, and that being my strength, I shall live as thus. Amen to all my sistas!