Jerry Jarvis

Not sure this is a good idea... I found this entry in my diary today. From April 16, 2004. We were seniors in high school, and I had broken up with Adam 1 1/2 months earlier. This evening, I had gone to Jerry's house to watch Resident Evil - a movie that was wicked (good and bad). I wrote this:

"I feel dark. Jerry has his life more in order than I. He is who I fight to be. Stable, dependant only on God. He [God] used him [Jerry] for me tonight - to get to me. Jerry knows where he is going and why... What am I doing?"